So sad

Not the Christmas anyone expected…

On the 22nd we learned that my sister in law’s brother died in his sleep the previous night. He was in his early 40’s, with 2 kids. She had lost another brother 4 years ago. She is now an only child… Both parents are still alive.

This year it was her turn to have us over for the Christmas dinner. She decided she did not want to cancel and still have a party. And it was a great idea. Everyone had a great time, we drank a lot (me too, a big fucking lot), did karaoke, word games, the food was great, we hugged a lot, cried, laughed, said I love you… L. did a wonderful santa for the kids.

That was last night. Before leaving for the party I called my dad to ask what time he wanted us to be there tonight for dinner. He said well, we might have a change of plans… My step mom’s sister has been in the hospital for a few weeks now, terminal cancer. And S. was there all night (23 to 24th). The doctors told the family she only had a few hours left.

This morning I called again, and my father told me S.’s sister had died yesterday. They are 10 brothers and sisters in her family, both parents are dead (of cancer). They were all there with their sister when she passed. I spoke with S. a little bit, we cried together, and I tried to comfort her as best as I could.

So we came back here. It’s been a very strange Christmas. I wasn’t looking forward to it, yet it probably was one of the best party we’ve ever had.

Maybe we were celebrating life.

4 thoughts on “So sad”

  1. Stephaine says:

    I’ve read this a couple of times trying to find the right words. My sympathy to you and your family. I’m glad though that you had a good time despite everything.

  2. swan_pr says:

    thank you so much 🙂 a very strange time indeed…

  3. Veronica says:

    My father used to send me the most tasteless birthday cards. We never really got along, and I think he sent them because he knew I wouldn’t like them. Every year. And I would show my friend Doug and say, why does he do this. And one year Doug said, “One day those cards aren’t going to come any more. And you’re gonna miss them.” My dad’s been dead 10 years now. I miss those stupid cards.

    Awesome post. Not looking forward to an event, and then the things that happen that change everything, Forever. It makes you not look forward to things completely differently, doesn’t it.

    Excellent closing line. Thank you for sharing this.

  4. swan_pr says:

    I still go through the cards my mom sent me, 5 years after she’s gone. Definately agree, this did shift my perception of anticipation. Thank you for reading 🙂 I hope you post soon.

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