A big step

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Tonight is a big night. L. is attending a 12 step progam meeting… It’s the first time he actually tries something, in all these years.

The trigger? Valentine’s day most likely. This was not an evening to remember. I walked in the bedroom, he was there, a glass of scotch on the bedside table, coked out of his mind. I was so, so dissapointed. But proud at the same time, because I was able to tell him. Instead of saying nothing, turning my head, gritting my teeth, waiting for it to be over. I spoke up. No fight. I just said “I am so dissapointed. I thought we could make this evening special, make love instead of fucking, like usual. I think you missed a great opportunity.” That’s all I said.

So he’s at the meeting right now. It was starting at 7.30pm. He hasn’t called yet. So I’m hoping it means that he stuck around. I’m hoping we can talk about it when he gets home. I’m hoping he will like it enough to go back.
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33 thoughts on “A big step”

  1. Stephaine says:

    The first step is the biggest. Good for him. Good for all of you.

  2. Anonymous says:

    The first step is the biggest. Good for him. Good for all of you.

  3. Anonymous says:

    The first step is the biggest. Good for him. Good for all of you.

  4. Anonymous says:

    The first step is the biggest. Good for him. Good for all of you.

  5. Anonymous says:

    The first step is the biggest. Good for him. Good for all of you.

  6. Spyder says:

    hopefully he’ll go back even if he didnt like it. wishing the best for you, for both of you.

  7. Anonymous says:

    hopefully he’ll go back even if he didnt like it. wishing the best for you, for both of you.

  8. Anonymous says:

    hopefully he’ll go back even if he didnt like it. wishing the best for you, for both of you.

  9. Anonymous says:

    hopefully he’ll go back even if he didnt like it. wishing the best for you, for both of you.

  10. Anonymous says:

    hopefully he’ll go back even if he didnt like it. wishing the best for you, for both of you.

  11. Carmo says:

    that’s good news. Small steps need to be taken to acheive big strides in life…have confidence and show him that, it may drive him that bit harder to succeed.

  12. Anonymous says:

    that’s good news. Small steps need to be taken to acheive big strides in life…have confidence and show him that, it may drive him that bit harder to succeed.

  13. Anonymous says:

    that’s good news. Small steps need to be taken to acheive big strides in life…have confidence and show him that, it may drive him that bit harder to succeed.

  14. Anonymous says:

    that’s good news. Small steps need to be taken to acheive big strides in life…have confidence and show him that, it may drive him that bit harder to succeed.

  15. Anonymous says:

    that’s good news. Small steps need to be taken to acheive big strides in life…have confidence and show him that, it may drive him that bit harder to succeed.

  16. DAVE (theendofdave.com) says:

    “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” (Chinese proverb)

    Fantastic news. I hope he sticks with it. And well cutting men off usualy gets them to act – good strategy 😉

  17. Anonymous says:

    “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” (Chinese proverb)

    Fantastic news. I hope he sticks with it. And well cutting men off usualy gets them to act – good strategy 😉

  18. Anonymous says:

    “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” (Chinese proverb)

    Fantastic news. I hope he sticks with it. And well cutting men off usualy gets them to act – good strategy 😉

  19. Anonymous says:

    “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” (Chinese proverb)Fantastic news. I hope he sticks with it. And well cutting men off usualy gets them to act – good strategy 😉

  20. Anonymous says:

    “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” (Chinese proverb)Fantastic news. I hope he sticks with it. And well cutting men off usualy gets them to act – good strategy 😉

  21. swan_pr says:

    Thank you, thank you all for your words. they do mean a lot to me.

  22. Anonymous says:

    Thank you, thank you all for your words. they do mean a lot to me.

  23. Anonymous says:

    Thank you, thank you all for your words. they do mean a lot to me.

  24. Anonymous says:

    Thank you, thank you all for your words. they do mean a lot to me.

  25. Anonymous says:

    Thank you, thank you all for your words. they do mean a lot to me.

  26. Anonymous says:

    le Petit Extra? C quoi ca?

    Meme quand Eric Lapointe était populaire, son rock était passé date. C’Est ben le fun Metallica et Led Zep, mais copier c’Est pourrit. Faut trouver son style, pas le créer.

  27. Anonymous says:

    le Petit Extra? C quoi ca?

    Meme quand Eric Lapointe était populaire, son rock était passé date. C’Est ben le fun Metallica et Led Zep, mais copier c’Est pourrit. Faut trouver son style, pas le créer.

  28. Anonymous says:

    le Petit Extra? C quoi ca?

    Meme quand Eric Lapointe était populaire, son rock était passé date. C’Est ben le fun Metallica et Led Zep, mais copier c’Est pourrit. Faut trouver son style, pas le créer.

  29. Anonymous says:

    le Petit Extra? C quoi ca?

    Meme quand Eric Lapointe était populaire, son rock était passé date. C’Est ben le fun Metallica et Led Zep, mais copier c’Est pourrit. Faut trouver son style, pas le créer.

  30. Anonymous says:

    Le petit extra, c’est un restaurant français sur ontario coin papineau. vraiment bon!

    c’est le problème des rockers au québec je trouve. francophone en tout cas. ceux qui sont vraiment bons, on les entends pas, ils font encore les bars, parce que trop original ici, ça vend pas.

  31. Anonymous says:

    Le petit extra, c’est un restaurant français sur ontario coin papineau. vraiment bon!

    c’est le problème des rockers au québec je trouve. francophone en tout cas. ceux qui sont vraiment bons, on les entends pas, ils font encore les bars, parce que trop original ici, ça vend pas.

  32. Anonymous says:

    Le petit extra, c’est un restaurant français sur ontario coin papineau. vraiment bon!

    c’est le problème des rockers au québec je trouve. francophone en tout cas. ceux qui sont vraiment bons, on les entends pas, ils font encore les bars, parce que trop original ici, ça vend pas.

  33. Anonymous says:

    Le petit extra, c’est un restaurant français sur ontario coin papineau. vraiment bon!

    c’est le problème des rockers au québec je trouve. francophone en tout cas. ceux qui sont vraiment bons, on les entends pas, ils font encore les bars, parce que trop original ici, ça vend pas.

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