The first step

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I think it went well. He found others. Men. A place to share without shame, judgement. The prayers disturbed him a little, but he understands their meaning. I think he went thinking there would only be junkies and losers. That he did not belong in that kind of crowd. He came back realizing that they all were equal in their addiction. He’s tired. He’s fed up. He’s not having fun anymore. He sees things slipping away.

He says he’s going to a meeting tomorrow. And maybe Friday too.

I’m here. I always have been. The change is that I stopped seeing his problem as being mine. I left him the sole responsibility of his actions. I won’t bear the weight anymore. I want him to stop for him. But I’m here. Every time he said he’d stop, I was here. I believe in him.
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66 thoughts on “The first step”

  1. DAVE (theendofdave.com) says:

    mmmmm he is a junky. He needs to realise it. I hope he keeps going and makes himself a better person for it. He deserves it, his family deserves it also.

    Sending the vibes

  2. Anonymous says:

    mmmmm he is a junky. He needs to realise it. I hope he keeps going and makes himself a better person for it. He deserves it, his family deserves it also.

    Sending the vibes

  3. Anonymous says:

    mmmmm he is a junky. He needs to realise it. I hope he keeps going and makes himself a better person for it. He deserves it, his family deserves it also.

    Sending the vibes

  4. Anonymous says:

    mmmmm he is a junky. He needs to realise it. I hope he keeps going and makes himself a better person for it. He deserves it, his family deserves it also.Sending the vibes

  5. Anonymous says:

    mmmmm he is a junky. He needs to realise it. I hope he keeps going and makes himself a better person for it. He deserves it, his family deserves it also.Sending the vibes

  6. swan_pr says:

    I agree. and I think he did see that. thanks for the vibes πŸ™‚

  7. Anonymous says:

    I agree. and I think he did see that. thanks for the vibes πŸ™‚

  8. Anonymous says:

    I agree. and I think he did see that. thanks for the vibes πŸ™‚

  9. Anonymous says:

    I agree. and I think he did see that. thanks for the vibes πŸ™‚

  10. Anonymous says:

    I agree. and I think he did see that. thanks for the vibes πŸ™‚

  11. Anonymous says:

    FANTASTIC music πŸ˜€

  12. Anonymous says:

    FANTASTIC music πŸ˜€

  13. Anonymous says:

    FANTASTIC music πŸ˜€

  14. Anonymous says:

    FANTASTIC music πŸ˜€

  15. Anonymous says:

    indeed, great tune…nice piece of luggage too πŸ™‚ hope all’s good….lookin forward to the beach

  16. Anonymous says:

    indeed, great tune…nice piece of luggage too πŸ™‚ hope all’s good….lookin forward to the beach

  17. Anonymous says:

    indeed, great tune…nice piece of luggage too πŸ™‚ hope all’s good….lookin forward to the beach

  18. Anonymous says:

    indeed, great tune…nice piece of luggage too πŸ™‚ hope all’s good….lookin forward to the beach

  19. Anonymous says:

    That’s nice and pretty big. There’s no body in there is it?

  20. Anonymous says:

    That’s nice and pretty big. There’s no body in there is it?

  21. Anonymous says:

    That’s nice and pretty big. There’s no body in there is it?

  22. Anonymous says:

    That’s nice and pretty big. There’s no body in there is it?

  23. Anonymous says:

    jeliel: thanks πŸ™‚ Charles Mingus Mood Indigo. I never tire of it.

    carmo: all is getting much better, as the beach is getting closer. I can almost smell it.

    stephaine: lolllll πŸ™‚ woulnd’t you know it! hemmm, well, maybe one or two…

  24. Anonymous says:

    jeliel: thanks πŸ™‚ Charles Mingus Mood Indigo. I never tire of it.

    carmo: all is getting much better, as the beach is getting closer. I can almost smell it.

    stephaine: lolllll πŸ™‚ woulnd’t you know it! hemmm, well, maybe one or two…

  25. Anonymous says:

    jeliel: thanks πŸ™‚ Charles Mingus Mood Indigo. I never tire of it.

    carmo: all is getting much better, as the beach is getting closer. I can almost smell it.

    stephaine: lolllll πŸ™‚ woulnd’t you know it! hemmm, well, maybe one or two…

  26. Anonymous says:

    jeliel: thanks πŸ™‚ Charles Mingus Mood Indigo. I never tire of it.

    carmo: all is getting much better, as the beach is getting closer. I can almost smell it.

    stephaine: lolllll πŸ™‚ woulnd’t you know it! hemmm, well, maybe one or two…

  27. Anonymous says:

    great tune…who is it? By the way, if you like DJ shadow, check out U.N.K.L.E.

    Two albums, first one called Psyence Fiction (superb, DJ Shadow involved heavily and Thom Yorke sings on the last track) and second album called Never Never Land (again superb but no DJ Shadow). Well worth having

  28. Anonymous says:

    great tune…who is it? By the way, if you like DJ shadow, check out U.N.K.L.E.

    Two albums, first one called Psyence Fiction (superb, DJ Shadow involved heavily and Thom Yorke sings on the last track) and second album called Never Never Land (again superb but no DJ Shadow). Well worth having

  29. Anonymous says:

    great tune…who is it? By the way, if you like DJ shadow, check out U.N.K.L.E.

    Two albums, first one called Psyence Fiction (superb, DJ Shadow involved heavily and Thom Yorke sings on the last track) and second album called Never Never Land (again superb but no DJ Shadow). Well worth having

  30. Anonymous says:

    great tune…who is it? By the way, if you like DJ shadow, check out U.N.K.L.E.

    Two albums, first one called Psyence Fiction (superb, DJ Shadow involved heavily and Thom Yorke sings on the last track) and second album called Never Never Land (again superb but no DJ Shadow). Well worth having

  31. Anonymous says:

    The band is called Archive. I just discovered them so I’m not too familiar with their work, but that tune is great it’s true. You can hear more of them here: http://www.archives-archive.com

    Thanks for the suggestions, I’ll look’em up πŸ™‚

  32. Anonymous says:

    The band is called Archive. I just discovered them so I’m not too familiar with their work, but that tune is great it’s true. You can hear more of them here: http://www.archives-archive.com

    Thanks for the suggestions, I’ll look’em up πŸ™‚

  33. Anonymous says:

    The band is called Archive. I just discovered them so I’m not too familiar with their work, but that tune is great it’s true. You can hear more of them here: http://www.archives-archive.com

    Thanks for the suggestions, I’ll look’em up πŸ™‚

  34. Anonymous says:

    The band is called Archive. I just discovered them so I’m not too familiar with their work, but that tune is great it’s true. You can hear more of them here: http://www.archives-archive.com

    Thanks for the suggestions, I’ll look’em up πŸ™‚

  35. Anonymous says:

    “This is stop and go at it’s most cruel state.”

    Ah, what a familiar feeling. Gorgeous post.:)

  36. Anonymous says:

    “This is stop and go at it’s most cruel state.”

    Ah, what a familiar feeling. Gorgeous post.:)

  37. Anonymous says:

    “This is stop and go at it’s most cruel state.”

    Ah, what a familiar feeling. Gorgeous post.:)

  38. Anonymous says:

    “This is stop and go at it’s most cruel state.”

    Ah, what a familiar feeling. Gorgeous post.:)

  39. Anonymous says:

    We always go back to learn what we haven’t

  40. Anonymous says:

    We always go back to learn what we haven’t

  41. Anonymous says:

    We always go back to learn what we haven’t

  42. Anonymous says:

    We always go back to learn what we haven’t

  43. Anonymous says:

    There’s a price to pay. For going back.

    But I feel like Bart Simpson sometimes. When he tries to grab Lisa’s muffin. He knows it’s electrified. Every single time. Yet he still reaches for it.

  44. Anonymous says:

    There’s a price to pay. For going back.

    But I feel like Bart Simpson sometimes. When he tries to grab Lisa’s muffin. He knows it’s electrified. Every single time. Yet he still reaches for it.

  45. Anonymous says:

    There’s a price to pay. For going back.

    But I feel like Bart Simpson sometimes. When he tries to grab Lisa’s muffin. He knows it’s electrified. Every single time. Yet he still reaches for it.

  46. Anonymous says:

    There’s a price to pay. For going back.

    But I feel like Bart Simpson sometimes. When he tries to grab Lisa’s muffin. He knows it’s electrified. Every single time. Yet he still reaches for it.

  47. Anonymous says:

    jeliel, stephaine, aleida: Thank you πŸ™‚

    moonwart: trying…

  48. Anonymous says:

    jeliel, stephaine, aleida: Thank you πŸ™‚

    moonwart: trying…

  49. Anonymous says:

    jeliel, stephaine, aleida: Thank you πŸ™‚

    moonwart: trying…

  50. Anonymous says:

    jeliel, stephaine, aleida: Thank you πŸ™‚

    moonwart: trying…

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