Suspended

It was a new home
A new space
Unknown unfamiliar
That I seeked

What does my soul look like?

Some days are just not meant to be
Some place I wish I hadn’t gone to
Some words I hoped I’d never hear
For fear of never hearing them again

There is no place for me to run to
No direction that won’t take me back to here
deal. deal. deal.
All day, even on the ones not meant to be

Drowned in my indecisions
deal for fuck’s sake
deal I can, it’s not final
Just a place with a chair for me

I sit I deal I live for the moment after
Fresh start or clean slate
The moment after is dealt with
It’s the past, the past, the

deal
let
me
go