Not quite… But I’m in the temple of the Oracle, so I’m doing pretty good. And Kratos is damn sexy.
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What defines a relationship after so many years? Besides comfort, besides habit, besides security. There has to be love. There has to be patience, acceptance, trust, understanding. But these things mean some kind of self sacrifice. Does self sacrifice mean love? What makes us think that taking the backseat is love. Then again, why is it not? Happiness can be found in self awareness, yes. Emancipation? Ok.
I’m not happy. It’s not his fault. Not at this point. It’s mine only. I have chosen to become who I am. I have chosen the paths at the crossroads. I have made the decisions. Not anybody else. So if I’m unhappy, it can only be my fault. It is my burden. My war.
I can deal with this. Nothing has changed, nothing of importance, in the last few years. Nothing in our foundations. Nothing. I’ve been able to take it, I’ve even embraced it at times. I’ve taken the wrong paths at times. It is now up to me to find my way. If it could become what it is now, there is no reason why I can’t make it become something better.
I’m taking on a challenge. Not out of fear of being alone. Not out of pity. Not out of obligation. Out of love. To end the war within myself. Beware, the Goddess has arrived.
I should stop playing that game.
Keep Playing
No path is set.
Yeah, I wish there was a walkthrough on IGN or something…
Nope. No pause button so you can scury to IGN and find out where that damn key is hidden.
Swan I strongly believe one should sacrifice partially for a better couple life but I also believe that there are limits & there should be some co-understanding of situations. Sometimes no matter what, nth would work… don put too much of a blame on yrself. If U feel this is like a war then that is no good thing. Marriage is suppose to make you happy dear. Crossing my fingers for you.
dr 02, thank you 🙂 I agree with you, at this point it’s all about giving it a chance. It’s not blame I put on myself, but the responsibility of finding hapiness.
The hard part of playing the game is that the rules keep changing and no one bothers to say anything.
My husband told me I changed and I kept saying I didn’t. We were both right. When we met, I was 20. So, yes, I’m totally different 3 kids and 17 years later. It’s made for some bumpy times.
stephaine: I once heard this: a man marries a woman in hopes that she never changes, a woman maries a man in hopes that he will change… to acknowledge and accept the changes are definately a challenge!
jeliel: I’ve decided that here is my pause, my save point 😉